i dont usually make text posts on here, but i dont know where else to write this. facebook is too complicated right now because of injured parties. even though no one may read this, i have to put it out there.

my life has changed a great deal in the past months, especially these last 2 weeks.  in december, i asked someone to marry me. in january, i realized that i did not love that person. in february, i broke off the engagement and ended our relationship. i feel an extreme amount of guilt for my actions, but am comforted in knowing that i did the right thing.

despite the guilt and stress, i am happier than i have ever been. fate introduced me to the most incredible woman. shes smart, funny, the most beautiful creature that ive ever laid eyes on. i cant focus on work, i think about her every second of every day. i love her. completely. and she loves me.

i cant know what the future will hold, but i will do anything to make this work, even if i have to leave everything i know and have worked for behind. im going to visit her soon, she lives very far away. time could not move any slower. on top of that, i have the busiest season of work fast approaching, so time will practically stand still.

all i want is to make her happy for the rest of her life. im terrified that i may not live up to the expectation.